1st day of form 4

zzz..woke up so early today..6 am.school day ma ==

went to school.i thought i was early,but so many prefects were at the prefect's place already.so

semangat lah they all.haha.i tugas datang lewat.so many students came late today.those who

came by bus we let them go.see,i'm so good ^^ no lah,pity them also.maybe starting next week i

won't give exceptions anymore.must be fair also right.this is why i hate being a prefect.i always

feel so "serba salah" when i have to be the bad guy. all the latecomers had to made a special

line,cannot masuk perhimpunan rasmi.mr F made them do it lah,not me.

after the assembly,the new form 4s had to go in bilik kuliah and hear some boring taklimats.

rehat at 10.40!??

OMGoodness,starving..... T.T

and....

jeng jeng jeng

teacher announcing classes now.oh no,so scared ><

praying hard....

4sn 3 nicholas tan

T.T

stomped my feet so hard,tears coming out dy.

Eena:Weh don't cry la!

Grace: Eeeenaaaa we better be in the same classss

Teacher : 4sn 2 lai wern ern lim eena

yahoo!

yippee yippee yai yai =)

fuh.Thank God.

altogether my class not bad.got quite a lot of friends.

ashvin,yuktes,vignes,hidayah,zue,wen jia,su ying,zi hong,mawaddah,ikhwan,fikri,shahfakrul etc

all in my class :D

at night tuition chemistry-pn gui

sat right under the air-con

so damn freaking COLD.

2 hours freezed up. ><

and i had not aud or eena to hug ='(

no one to share my coldness to.LOL

so that's my first day of form 4.

nites!

The Days..

Yesterday was a history,
Today unveils a new story,
While tomorrow remains a mystery,
Only God knows what's in store for me.

My eyes open to see the bright morning sun,
At times blissfully waking to the melodious raindrops that run,
I've risen to skies of many hue,
Only never to the sight of you.

The days seem to pass,
My existence makes little difference or more,
Cause I'm always making a fuss,
Which makes the world less a bore.

It's hard to avoid a mistake,
The more I try not to the more I make,
Where did all my confidence sway,
Without it I dare not play.

Many a times I worry too much,
About why things should be such,
Thinking makes me lightheaded and dizzy,
It's no surprise if I go crazy.

Amidst the hustle and bustle of life,
I've only a moment to take five,
But this is part and parcel of life,
I can do nothing but learn to strive.

Your presence makes me feel lonely,
Your absence leaves me empty,
It's not so easy to forget the day,
On you my eyes lay.

When you break my heart,
And the longing is tearing me apart,
It will take a while,
To see my smile.

When will there be a tomorrow,
That won't leave room for sorrow,
Only happiness fills the air,
And the world suddenly feels so fair.

Having to live with the fear,
I'd rather disappear,
Even till the last breath I take,
He'll be with me for my sake.

Babysitter...

ok,i'm really really lazy to update and upkeep my blog because...because.i'm lazy!

not many people are interested with my life,so no one really cares if i update my blog or not..lol

but it's been 2-3 weeks since i finished PMR,and i feel like i should write something or else next

year when i get back to school my brain will get jammed up and i won't know how to write

anymore.

i know,i'm not even literally writing here,i'm typing.but the words are still coming out before me

right?

hmm,so last thursday,after our pasca pmr trip to alor setar,i went to my babysitter's house. =)

the last time i've been there is,wait,erm,i'm not sure.but i know it's been a long time

and i miss my ah yee (that's what i call my babysitter), ah chen jie jie (babysitter's

daughter),venessa (babysitter's granddaughter),alan (babysitter's grandson) and uncle pa

(babysitter's husband).

whee...that night i found out ah yee knows how to bake!omg

so i kind of begged and persuaded her that we do baking the next day (venessa's 8th birthday

=p )

bought ingredients...ooh,can't wait to start baking.my hands feel so itchy writing this post.haha

i assured her that she only needs to do the talking,i'll take care of the rest.

hah!

it turned out that she did more work than me.i even took a short nap when the cake was in the

oven.i think she knew that she couldn't trust my words.thank God for that too.or else i think the

cake will be a mess.lol

alan and venessa wanted to 'help' us but i tried my best from preventing them to do so.

cause i'm afraid their 'help' will leave us helpless.haha

when i woke up,i saw my ah yee doing cupcakes.wow!

we used really really thick milo for the topping.haha.creative huh?we didn't buy chocolate,hence

the milo.

i had pure fun and satisfaction by just squeezing out the contents onto the cupcakes.

got lots and lots of shapes!smiley faces also got. =) =p XD =D :D

all sorts lah...

very delicious you know

i love it.

i hope i can do this with my babysitter again next time.

i love baking!!it makes me go ecstatic


xoxo crazyoverbakingbutdunnohowtobake

faster!!

i'm bored i'm bored i'm bored

why don't i feel the sensation to study??=="

i hope i've done enough preparation

can't wait for pmr to be over!!

everyone shares the same wish as me i dare say..

i wanna do lotsa things after pmr...

so i'm just counting the days,the hours,the minutes,the seconds for it to be over..hahaha

whoever who happens to read this,

please pray for me..pray that i'll get 7 A's ok??

grace hwaiting!!!!!!!!!

my first love declaration..

no matter how many new groups come and go...no matter how pretty,how hot,how good they

can dance,hot sweet their voice are,believe me when i say they're the only ones for me..no other

groups will make me fall head over heels in love with them as much i am with this particular

one..or i should say not even half as much..this may sound like the lamest love declaration,and i

may not be the best SONE,but because of you,i entered the k-pop world.if u leave,i won't

hesitate leaving too ♥

Poetry Corner

i saw these 2 poems from StarTwo today..really nice..i love poems..especially when i'm emo2 time..too bad i can't write good ones though T.T i do not own copyright.this is purely for sharing purposes.

TRAPPED

What do I do,
when all I see around me are walls?
How do I keep going,
when each step I take,
is met with more obstacles?
What do I do,
when each day seems like a battle?
How do I drag myself up each morning,
when I don't see the point of it all?
How can I tell myself, to be strong,
when there isn't a single positive thought to sustain me through the day?
What do I do, when I myself am sick of complaining?
Who else do I turn to, when I'm guilty of burdening my loved ones?
When those who care are not near,
And those who are near don't really care?
What do I do, stuck in this endless whirlwind of ill luck?
I envy those who at least have the option of giving up.
What do I do?

credits to DareNotHope


WHO ARE YOU?

My heart skipped many beats at the sight of you
My pulse began to race
As we exchanged glances
perplexed looks
with the slightest recognition in our eyes

You're the puzzle
that's gotten me puzzled
Now I'm trying to put the pieces together
Wondering where we've met before
Wondering why I'm feeling this way
wondering who you are

Your origins struck a vague memory
The faintness of it frustrates me
I can't seem to trace
Who you are
or who you may be
Perhaps we've met?
Spoken in a dream or two?
Or was it reality?

Yet I'll never know
for you are worlds apart
and we may never meet again.

credits to Elsy

i went to church yesterday night for the sunday service coz' the saturday and sunday service

have been combined for 2 weeks

and last night's service was awesome

the new speaker who's from Ipoh but works in New York, he was good

he made the sermon interesting

i really liked it

but what was most important is about the message right?

God's word and not just about the speakers

james 1:1

James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ,

To the twelve tribes scattered among the nations :

Greetings.

1.the pastor stressed the point that James, Jesus' brother is a SERVANT of his own brother, which

is Jesus.

a servant is a BORN SLAVE.

you serve your master your whole life and you won't have the chance to be a free man

then he asked siblings in the church to raise up our hands

so yeah me and my brother raised our hands and we got a really SIMPLE question
pastor:"Are you willing to be your brother's servant?"

me: *shakes head vigorously* i don't need even a second to answer that question..haha

then he asked us to say to our brothers and sisters one really HARD sentence

"look into each other's eye and say 'I am your servant' "

omg,i giggled so hard when i told that my bro i could barely finish the sentence

it was outright difficult for me to say that because i know i won't be able to keep it

but James declared himself a servant of Jesus

the pastor said, when he have problems serving others,we should seek the Lord

solve it with God first and then with man

2. to the 12 tribes scattered among the nations

the 12 tribes refer to the Jews (Christians)

God has spread us out, scattered us into different parts of this world to grow new life, new hope

and to save new people

it was a difficult times for the Jews that time that have to be separated

just like us

but think,if all Christians are in the same place then what about the rest of the world who have

not come to know the Lord?

then they will never ever know him

so God has a mission for us

that is to spread the Gospel so that our loved ones can be saved too

he is not selfish

he wants all his children to be saved

and enjoy eternal life with him in heaven

where there's no pain,not tears,no sufferings,only joy and happiness



P/S :many non-believers refuse to believe in Christ on the grounds that our God cannot be seen

or held, unlike the Buddhist and Hindus they have idols and stuff.

yes we seem abstract and we don't have something concrete like them but we have the

B-I-B-L-E.God's words are all in it.

Jesus wants us to believe with our hearts,to have faith and trust! not by sight with eyes

that's why Christians can have an intimate relationship with God.