my first love declaration..

no matter how many new groups come and go...no matter how pretty,how hot,how good they

can dance,hot sweet their voice are,believe me when i say they're the only ones for me..no other

groups will make me fall head over heels in love with them as much i am with this particular

one..or i should say not even half as much..this may sound like the lamest love declaration,and i

may not be the best SONE,but because of you,i entered the k-pop world.if u leave,i won't

hesitate leaving too ♥

Poetry Corner

i saw these 2 poems from StarTwo today..really nice..i love poems..especially when i'm emo2 time..too bad i can't write good ones though T.T i do not own copyright.this is purely for sharing purposes.

TRAPPED

What do I do,
when all I see around me are walls?
How do I keep going,
when each step I take,
is met with more obstacles?
What do I do,
when each day seems like a battle?
How do I drag myself up each morning,
when I don't see the point of it all?
How can I tell myself, to be strong,
when there isn't a single positive thought to sustain me through the day?
What do I do, when I myself am sick of complaining?
Who else do I turn to, when I'm guilty of burdening my loved ones?
When those who care are not near,
And those who are near don't really care?
What do I do, stuck in this endless whirlwind of ill luck?
I envy those who at least have the option of giving up.
What do I do?

credits to DareNotHope


WHO ARE YOU?

My heart skipped many beats at the sight of you
My pulse began to race
As we exchanged glances
perplexed looks
with the slightest recognition in our eyes

You're the puzzle
that's gotten me puzzled
Now I'm trying to put the pieces together
Wondering where we've met before
Wondering why I'm feeling this way
wondering who you are

Your origins struck a vague memory
The faintness of it frustrates me
I can't seem to trace
Who you are
or who you may be
Perhaps we've met?
Spoken in a dream or two?
Or was it reality?

Yet I'll never know
for you are worlds apart
and we may never meet again.

credits to Elsy

i went to church yesterday night for the sunday service coz' the saturday and sunday service

have been combined for 2 weeks

and last night's service was awesome

the new speaker who's from Ipoh but works in New York, he was good

he made the sermon interesting

i really liked it

but what was most important is about the message right?

God's word and not just about the speakers

james 1:1

James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ,

To the twelve tribes scattered among the nations :

Greetings.

1.the pastor stressed the point that James, Jesus' brother is a SERVANT of his own brother, which

is Jesus.

a servant is a BORN SLAVE.

you serve your master your whole life and you won't have the chance to be a free man

then he asked siblings in the church to raise up our hands

so yeah me and my brother raised our hands and we got a really SIMPLE question
pastor:"Are you willing to be your brother's servant?"

me: *shakes head vigorously* i don't need even a second to answer that question..haha

then he asked us to say to our brothers and sisters one really HARD sentence

"look into each other's eye and say 'I am your servant' "

omg,i giggled so hard when i told that my bro i could barely finish the sentence

it was outright difficult for me to say that because i know i won't be able to keep it

but James declared himself a servant of Jesus

the pastor said, when he have problems serving others,we should seek the Lord

solve it with God first and then with man

2. to the 12 tribes scattered among the nations

the 12 tribes refer to the Jews (Christians)

God has spread us out, scattered us into different parts of this world to grow new life, new hope

and to save new people

it was a difficult times for the Jews that time that have to be separated

just like us

but think,if all Christians are in the same place then what about the rest of the world who have

not come to know the Lord?

then they will never ever know him

so God has a mission for us

that is to spread the Gospel so that our loved ones can be saved too

he is not selfish

he wants all his children to be saved

and enjoy eternal life with him in heaven

where there's no pain,not tears,no sufferings,only joy and happiness



P/S :many non-believers refuse to believe in Christ on the grounds that our God cannot be seen

or held, unlike the Buddhist and Hindus they have idols and stuff.

yes we seem abstract and we don't have something concrete like them but we have the

B-I-B-L-E.God's words are all in it.

Jesus wants us to believe with our hearts,to have faith and trust! not by sight with eyes

that's why Christians can have an intimate relationship with God.

let go of the hatred...

Unnie,

u wrote a post for me

now i'm writing you one

i don't know what's bothering you lately

but i'm pretty sure it's a guy

some relationship matters

you never told me before

i'm just guessing it from your blogs and fb status

i still remember what you told me

that if you crush on him and he don't crush you back,don't waste time

but how do you know whether or not he has a crush on you too?

ASK HIM!

i know it's bloody hard to do..we have no guts..

we think it's inappropriate for girls to confess to a guy

it should be the other way round

but like what you say,guys can be total idiots sometimes

so..it's up to you la

i dunno whether this has been the least helpful or not

but please do not keep the hatred for long

it won't do you any good

this must be a tough time for you

having to deal with emotions and spm as well

but right now,spm is the most important right??

so study hard!keep yourself occupied so you have no time for that bas!ard

and don't forget....you have a sis you can always talk or cry to =)

and also your besties...

unnie jjang!hwaiting!!

Love,
dongsaeng

so scared..but now it's over!=)

my practical exam!over!

=)

i was counting the hours from yesterday...

and the next minute i knew,i was out from the exam room dy

haha

think i did pretty badly though=(

the piano so one kind wan

i practise so much dy

but sigh,did it show in the exam?

well,i just leave the results to God

Amen.

trials next week T.T

haven't study finish yet

must go pulun pulun pulun!

good luck to everyone who's sitting for upsr,pmr n spm :D

HARI KOKO 2010

lol..

so fast la this year's hari koko

like not prepared for it

busy with exams and all

last year's hari koko was much.much later..

august like that kut..

despite all that,

it still turned out pretty well=)

hahaha

yesterday i was damn pissed coz sir said not enough papan,

cannot do breaking

i was like cursing !@#$%^&* bla bla bla and venting out my frustration to aleena

haiz

then at last we terpesong go talk about safwan,shi hao and some other guys la..

to release stress ma

then i finally let it go "never do breaking also don't care la,next year don't enter demo nia lo"

mana tau this morning sir came with extra papan

wah,must grab opportunity dy!

"sir,i nak buat breaking boleh?"

"boleh la,ada papan extra"

=DD

"yay,aleena,mawaddah,ze ying we can do breaking dy.."

now scared pulak whether can break the papan or not...

crap la,i elbowed the papan 3 times only patah

huhu..embarassing giler

biakpi arr,at least get to do breaking and the papan patah

i'm grateful enough

kesian crystal,her elbow all bruised

after demo we took pics with taekwondo team..

now i'm not so sure whether next year wanna enter demo or not..hehehe..see first la..

i go change shirt in bilik persalinan

come out eena,aleena and nurin terus hilang!

my phone,coupon n bag all with eena

omg,have to find them now..

walk one whole padang don't have also..

go pengawas place,saw nicholas ..

"wey,u have eena's hp number right?"

"ya"

"call her please"

"hello,eena where are you?"

"i jaga gerai pandu la.aleena at the toilet,go find her there"

"owh ok bb"

finally found aleena took my bag and chao

walk alone...ask nic,andrew they all teman..

walk walk walk

ei,jie!

u walk alone also arr?

then leave the guys and go with my unnie..haha

sorry guys..

we ate nasi lemak together-gether

camwhored a bit

then continue walking..

then unnie go gerai pengakap,got some matters to attend to

so i go jaga maths club gerai

sell lo..

promote maths club like crazy

but not many people buy the food =(

they bought drinks nia..

but okay la..

i was so absorbed in selling that i tugas lebih masa..hihihi

my voice also so hoarse dy

go buy ice kacang from music club..

yumyum,quite delicious..

eat while promoting maths club..

*see,i so dedicated and bersungguh-sungguh

xP

even sir fletcher bought food from my stall u know

pro leh..hehe

later go find eena and aleena they all at the koperasi

awhile nia

then i go find jie again

lepak with her and her friends awhile

hahaha,then we had this idea

we go dedicate something..

from : joyce 5sc2 & grace 3a2

to : fans of nichkhun (2pm) & jessica (snsd)

message: joyce ♥ nichkhun.grace ♥ jessica. Stay away ; muahahaha. Happy advanced teacher's day

crazy right..

kugan say i lesbo

stupid la he..

gagaga

...now i cannot remember what happen dy..

we keep walking ...then we ended up in one of the form 2 classes

see the drama audition,but i tak faham anything also..blur case

suddenly rain O.o

i go buy the pendrive case from chinese club..

crystal helped me choose wan..thx=)

after that me and jie go ronda at blok kj

wow,so damn quiet...

we gossip2..

i read a bit of sejarah

jie wrote her drama script..

rabiatul came..

so fast 3.30 dy

have to go back liao

T.T

bye bye ..

hari koko also end dy..

P/S : enjoyed the fiesta koko coz get to spend quality time with my sis..hahaha..also get to sell drinks and food for maths club..demo get to do breaking..wheee =))

POWER OF G.A.L.E

omgomgomg!!!she came again!!to school!!

who???

who else can i get so freaking excited about??

audrey la!!!

hahaha=)

cool..she made my day xDD

thank you to whoever who made the jadual waktu that we have 2 free periods today

huh,exactly what we needed...

no,i need x100 more times than that..

such a waste lar..should have ponteng class fater pi time coz encik jamil never come and sivik teacher also never come..

crap,if i knew that earlier i might have just ponteng with eena and aud

but i don't think i have the guts to do it bearing in mind all the stupid consequences if i got caught playing truant especially by SOME teachers..

i.e.

i)i'm a prefect
ii)i'm a prefect who's got to wear a blazer already..which means get tauliah dy..
iii)get blacklisted
iv)if people know then very siasui

...etc..

this might be her last time coming to sp...T.T

she maybe not going tuition with me dy....arghhhh

because of her mum lo..first so beria-ia wanna send her to msn ..

now suddenly say duwan...

end of last year,i had a hard time accepting the fact that my 8-year best sticky friend is leaving me...

when i convinced myself it'll be okay,we'll still keep in touch via facebook,msn,sms etc..

she gave me a shock,she said she's coming to sp for tuition

OMG!

so i went to sunday class even though sometimes have to stay back in school for society

just to see her..

not only that lar..it's also coz' the friday and tuesday class very packed like sardin..lolz

but the more main reason is to see her =P

and everytime she goes to tuition,i'm so happy..haha

i can't get enough of it

i'm very greedy

when she left school today,i was so afraid she won't be coming back to see me anymore..

i should have been grateful to at least see her more than eena

but u know,i'm really greedy..xP

then now she said she's most probably stop going tuition

shit

another time my brain will need to process that statement

which it hates to

T.T

don't leave me again....

so sad...

sob sob


P/S:aud ar,dun let ur mom see this post ah..or not i die lo...

muacks..merrong <3