Friends,anybody?

Can I ask you a question
It's something that I don't usually mention
But it's becoming too sore
I need to let go, I can't take this anymore

Do true friends really exist
For I can't find any in my midst
Those who care are far, far away
Those who don't are just a stone's throw away

Friends, so they say
Then why wouldn't they say okay
When I needed a little support
Instead, they left me alone to rot

Is it a crime to walk alone
People who don't know me see as sad
I don't care as long as I'm fine on my own
After months of doing it, it's not all that bad

I used to have a few close friends
I miss those days, those endless plans
From homework to fashion
And not to forget heart-to-heart conversation

Even after knowing each other for years
Are we to be merely peers
And nothing more?
What about mates whom I could roar with laughter and cry out to when my heart tore?

I'd always reminisce the memory
All the happy times are now history
In future, would they do the same
Or would they forget even my name

If there is something that I lack
Fat chance, I won't get the sack
Coz the world won't cut me some slack
They're laughing behind my back

I have lost faith in the human race
Maybe I just can't keep up with its pace
But I find it too fake
If I were to go along for appearance's sake.

I have a sense of foreboding that things are never going to stay the same again.
Or, maybe me.

The Sick Planet Earth

What have the world become today
That our hearts are covered with clouds of grey
What happened to joy and peace,always in pair
That used to fill the air?

Many are denied basic rights
For a shelter we see fights
Not even a roof over the head
Oh,my!What fate

Those who live in luxury
Have no idea about poverty
Wealth substitutes being healthy
Money replace being happy

But crime knows no difference
It only separates good from evil
Spare me the suspense,
I hope but to no avail

Mass murders,multiple killings
Gang rape,botched robbery
Cruel are human beings
To commit sin after sin too freely

Abuse of family and friends
Is where good tie ends
And leaves only a flood
Full of bad blood

People face death
Without breathing one last breath
Innocent ones plea
While sinful ones flee

I pray and pray
Asking for love and mercy
Only the Lord can hear what i say
For He is the great and almighty

Heart's Talk

When I first saw you,
I didn't know what to do,
To greet you hi,
Or to bid goodbye.

Then the attraction started,
Soon the seed was planted,
Growing deeper by the day,
Much more than I can say.

Only that moment lasted,
The rest slips away,
Once,or twice,I paused and pondered,
What our lives would be like today.

Our bond created,
My heart you painted,
Making me feel elated,
Till the day we both parted.

I waited and waited,
Until the colours faded,
And the leaves withered,
It seems like we were not fated.

1st day of form 4

zzz..woke up so early today..6 am.school day ma ==

went to school.i thought i was early,but so many prefects were at the prefect's place already.so

semangat lah they all.haha.i tugas datang lewat.so many students came late today.those who

came by bus we let them go.see,i'm so good ^^ no lah,pity them also.maybe starting next week i

won't give exceptions anymore.must be fair also right.this is why i hate being a prefect.i always

feel so "serba salah" when i have to be the bad guy. all the latecomers had to made a special

line,cannot masuk perhimpunan rasmi.mr F made them do it lah,not me.

after the assembly,the new form 4s had to go in bilik kuliah and hear some boring taklimats.

rehat at 10.40!??

OMGoodness,starving..... T.T

and....

jeng jeng jeng

teacher announcing classes now.oh no,so scared ><

praying hard....

4sn 3 nicholas tan

T.T

stomped my feet so hard,tears coming out dy.

Eena:Weh don't cry la!

Grace: Eeeenaaaa we better be in the same classss

Teacher : 4sn 2 lai wern ern lim eena

yahoo!

yippee yippee yai yai =)

fuh.Thank God.

altogether my class not bad.got quite a lot of friends.

ashvin,yuktes,vignes,hidayah,zue,wen jia,su ying,zi hong,mawaddah,ikhwan,fikri,shahfakrul etc

all in my class :D

at night tuition chemistry-pn gui

sat right under the air-con

so damn freaking COLD.

2 hours freezed up. ><

and i had not aud or eena to hug ='(

no one to share my coldness to.LOL

so that's my first day of form 4.

nites!

The Days..

Yesterday was a history,
Today unveils a new story,
While tomorrow remains a mystery,
Only God knows what's in store for me.

My eyes open to see the bright morning sun,
At times blissfully waking to the melodious raindrops that run,
I've risen to skies of many hue,
Only never to the sight of you.

The days seem to pass,
My existence makes little difference or more,
Cause I'm always making a fuss,
Which makes the world less a bore.

It's hard to avoid a mistake,
The more I try not to the more I make,
Where did all my confidence sway,
Without it I dare not play.

Many a times I worry too much,
About why things should be such,
Thinking makes me lightheaded and dizzy,
It's no surprise if I go crazy.

Amidst the hustle and bustle of life,
I've only a moment to take five,
But this is part and parcel of life,
I can do nothing but learn to strive.

Your presence makes me feel lonely,
Your absence leaves me empty,
It's not so easy to forget the day,
On you my eyes lay.

When you break my heart,
And the longing is tearing me apart,
It will take a while,
To see my smile.

When will there be a tomorrow,
That won't leave room for sorrow,
Only happiness fills the air,
And the world suddenly feels so fair.

Having to live with the fear,
I'd rather disappear,
Even till the last breath I take,
He'll be with me for my sake.

Babysitter...

ok,i'm really really lazy to update and upkeep my blog because...because.i'm lazy!

not many people are interested with my life,so no one really cares if i update my blog or not..lol

but it's been 2-3 weeks since i finished PMR,and i feel like i should write something or else next

year when i get back to school my brain will get jammed up and i won't know how to write

anymore.

i know,i'm not even literally writing here,i'm typing.but the words are still coming out before me

right?

hmm,so last thursday,after our pasca pmr trip to alor setar,i went to my babysitter's house. =)

the last time i've been there is,wait,erm,i'm not sure.but i know it's been a long time

and i miss my ah yee (that's what i call my babysitter), ah chen jie jie (babysitter's

daughter),venessa (babysitter's granddaughter),alan (babysitter's grandson) and uncle pa

(babysitter's husband).

whee...that night i found out ah yee knows how to bake!omg

so i kind of begged and persuaded her that we do baking the next day (venessa's 8th birthday

=p )

bought ingredients...ooh,can't wait to start baking.my hands feel so itchy writing this post.haha

i assured her that she only needs to do the talking,i'll take care of the rest.

hah!

it turned out that she did more work than me.i even took a short nap when the cake was in the

oven.i think she knew that she couldn't trust my words.thank God for that too.or else i think the

cake will be a mess.lol

alan and venessa wanted to 'help' us but i tried my best from preventing them to do so.

cause i'm afraid their 'help' will leave us helpless.haha

when i woke up,i saw my ah yee doing cupcakes.wow!

we used really really thick milo for the topping.haha.creative huh?we didn't buy chocolate,hence

the milo.

i had pure fun and satisfaction by just squeezing out the contents onto the cupcakes.

got lots and lots of shapes!smiley faces also got. =) =p XD =D :D

all sorts lah...

very delicious you know

i love it.

i hope i can do this with my babysitter again next time.

i love baking!!it makes me go ecstatic


xoxo crazyoverbakingbutdunnohowtobake